+Pain within Flaws+
I was lonely and maybe hurt by many things. But the most hurtful things are being acknowledged by your flaws.I wasn't perfect...at least, I never think I will ever will be. My boyfriend talks of knowing everything..except he never give a thought that it hurts. I never cook...and I couldn't sew.....everything to him is a joke. Calling me a male....a female who shouldn't be.....it was all a 'joke' ....something that is only funny to him and probably to everyone else, except me.
I never knew the reason why parents left me...I wasn't borned with a deformed body nor am I a siamese twin. So the concludes that they didn't want me because of my flaws. And after being 'joked' about my flaws..it seems that, EVERYONE knows that I am imperfect and worthless. He was having fun hurting me...and I was in pain....tears come out from two sides, my eyes and heart. I didn't know why my parents just leave me to whither away when I was a child. I didn't even want to see myself when I look into a mirror...I just don't want to see that pathetic, sad, lonely girl.
Yeah...I guess I shouldn't call him "my boyfriend". I wasn't proud being moody and depressed. Nor did I enjoy the everyday joking of my flaws from my so-called boyfriend. It was a joke to him...but...it was something that I hate about myself.
posted by Luna @ 12:14 PM
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