.::*~-+Thinking+-~*::.
Things aren't as loving as I hoped it would. I deserve it because of what I said. But it never mean anything. I was mad that there is less contact from you.....but that isn't right---you're in college, and I am just a whiny high school girl. I should have been perspective as I have in the last months or so.
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I remembered when nothing was in our way (we were in Summer Vacation) and I was stressed out about high school which I will start as a Freshman. I talked to you, and for a moment, I think I forgotten about high school. Surely, you must feel the same way--I thought--knowing that it was just a burst of admiration, I hoped that you feel the same way and, at least, be there so I can speak to you again. And you did (Thank goodness!).*~*~*
I didn't forget all those days or what seemed a few mintues of talking (it was for hours in reality!). You seemed content and very happy to see me (always). I wondered if you felt a spark as I had. Then on that Independence Day (after waiting for your return from the fireworks) I realized how much effort I put into having a chance to talk to you. "Am I----in LOVE with him???" I wondered. And it was true. By the time you came back, I couldn't wait for another day to tell you ((I guess I was very impatient)).
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But I was very cautious. Will he love me back?--I thought---Will he know how much I feel and return that same feeling back to me?? And as if I gotten psychic powers, I , somehow, felt that "Yes! You do feel the same way, and you won't reject my feelings for you". And so, I told you....I admit having a crush on you on Independence Day. I felt fireworks (spiritually) and sweat as I hoped that my sudden burst of confidence isn't correct. You were speechless....but then...
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"You're the only person who gotten close to me........" I remembered---it was nothing special, but it was to me. I felt that you were trying to say that you have a crush on me, too. And it ended. We are together--no longer crushes or secret admirers, just a couple at their sprout of Heaven. I didn't care what you did that should make everyone else at their great awe. You are my true love, my Hope and Dreams, my man. No one is perfect. But you are perfect; I have the ability to love you for whatever you throw at me. I didn't care what you did or say. I couldn't help but feel the tenderness of love as I see your face. I hoped that you feel the same way for me.
---To Alexander
My only happiness that Heaven envies to give to angels.
posted by Luna @ 8:11 AM
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