++February 1st....Let my Heart Live++
Today, I have been told by my second oldest cousin that my grand ma might not make it. My grand ma has been having heart problems...right now, she is in a coma because of a stroke. I may not be crying now...but I know I will be. Denial--I don't want to think that my grand ma is leaving me because she is the only guardian who has truly been there for me and feel how much pain I am going through. Although, I might not have known before, I truly felt that she was like a mother to me....and for all this time..I have been in torture that no one loves me or even know that I existed.*~*~*
Sometimes I wish I can tell her how lonely I was when I felt like no one even cares about me. I wish to tell her that my life would have disappeared if it haven't for her and my grand father. I hated my life...and even wished that I was dead. But now, to my great horror, I wished nothing more than to see my grand mother alive. I don't care if the world hates my guts. My only family is disappearing and life can't be anymore painful. I thought I knew what it was like to lose someone special..but now, I may experience the pain many have went through.
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To Your Heart
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I hate to say good bye
To which I knew that someday
I will fly
next to you; side by side.
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I didn't tell you from the beginning
how much I love you.
now that your life is ending
I only wish that you would awaken again.
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Don't disappear
forever
Please tell me you are here
always and forever.
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I hate to say good bye
To which I knew that someday
I will fly
next to you; side by side. (~and forever more)
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-February 8, 2006-
Wednesday
3:23 am.
De Huyuh passed away
*We'll always love you*
posted by Luna @ 3:22 PM
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