♥Wedding Bliss♥
When I walk to school everyday, my thoughts linger around my personal life with my boyfriend. Most of the time, I find myself paying more attention to daydreaming about my life with Alex (my boyfriend) than my school work. If I only knew how to end those dreams...but my heart beats for love, so there is nothing I can do but dream and do nothing but wait for him.
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I usually don't spend 80% of my life daydreaming. It's usually when I go to bed that I daydream. But recently, I do nothing but daydream...and I know why; it's because the fact that Alex haven't been online or contact me for more the 2 or 3 weeks. I don't feel desperate, rather abandoned or lonely. I only wish to speak to him at least twice a month. That is enough to satisfy me. There are also times when he promised that he will be online to talk to me; I've waited on that day(s) but he never showed up. My best friend and sister are beginning to be very impatient with him. They know I love him deeply, but they're very angry how he treated me. My best friend is annoyed by the fact that Alex is willing to pick up to a total stranger (Tetsu, my sister's boyfriend) rather than saying "hi" to his girlfriend when she (I) calls. It was true---I have to admit. But I can only hope that he does miss me and that he has a good reason to never answer my calls. Although, it still hurts.
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I've found out recently that marriage isn't created to bond man and property together; rather, it's a vow between two people who wants to spend the rest of their lives together with the witness of their friends, families, and God. It came to a point in time in which the purpose became more heartless (the union of man and property). I can only hope that my boyfriend believes me. I have proof, if he doesn't. But even so, I feel as if we'll never get married because of the fact that he wouldn't let a dead man's words die with him. Marriage was never about property. It was initially for love and the combining of two lives together; I can only wish that I will experience such bliss; to make vows of love is a dream for me..therefore, I will always dream for that future.
posted by Luna @ 12:22 PM
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