*~13linking Moment~*

Everything is determined by my love's words.  I wish it can be helped.  To be happy and satisfied that at least I can love and he will be happy..I wish that is enough to make me smile.  But tears flow..if he chooses to leave me.  

I wish I can be satisfied with just being his "friend".  But I doubt my heart can take it.  I can't fake a smile.  I'm not trying to lie...this is how I feel.  It's not like this is all his fault.  No..I want him to tell me the truth and know that this is only for his happiness.

I just wish I was part of it.

Maybe I am being too emotional.  But how can I expect my heart can just fall in love without much of time spent with someone else?  Can I truly believe that all my effort and determination is to fail because my feelings are fickle and forever changing??  I hope that my love lasts.  I don't want to pretend. I don't want to lie.  I do not want to give him guilt or pressure.  Rather..I'm confused and only trying to figure out my future.  

Hopes and Doubts linger...but still, I am only a pawn of Love.