Alone---Walk Away or Stay?
I can't say I enjoyed feeling "single"....I almost hurt myself for reminding how alone I was...I was once attached to someone emotionally---not being able to be together doesn't matter to me. But now the person I love wants to detach himself...and everything seems to have been destroyed---the love, the closeness, the determination.... I never felt so alone..
I was alone before, but love never occured to me (the meaning of love is still fairly unknown to me). But when we tells me.. that he doesn't feel the same... I thought my heart was caving in on itself..
I don't want to forget...I don't want to end it...but I'm not obsessed. I still have my sanity..but I fear that my heart has disappeared..
Sometimes I wish my heart never exist...
so I can just walk away and never cry a tear..
but it created a bigger dagger through my heart.. "Would it make everyone satisfied if I didn't exist?" it cries out...
I felt cold tears crawling down my cheeks...I wanted to be happy...but what if I will always be like this? Would it have been better if I never had feelings?
I don't know what I'll do...I want to keep trying and have him remember how much we loved each other in the past 4 years...
I don't want to give up...
but still I feel as if I should just run away.......and never see him again...
posted by Luna @ 12:51 PM
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